more.

there has GOT to be more to life than this. i mean, i know there is. i'm just not "there" yet.

i work a 9-5. and i use the term "work" very loosely. very loosely.

the reality of it is more like this:

i drive 40 minutes each way to an office park, where i pull into a parking spot and walk into a building that houses a few hundred people. i then go into my assigned seat located inside three partioned walls and sit. i just sit here. for 8 hrs a day.

i might as well be playing "damn it feels good to be a gangsta...." i practically live on the set of Office Space.


i mean, i stumble and i read my favorite blogs...and i chat on gmail. but in terms of work...i do very little of it. that's not to say i have a pile of work stacking up on my desk, because i don't. and i've been here for a year...you'd think someone would want to utilize me. i'm not dumb...i'm actually quite intelligent. with the proper training, i could benefit the company in a big way. but i've yet to be utilized.

and it doesn't help that i'm changing careers so i don't really care if i get the training i should probably be getting at this point. in my mind, i'm leaving next year so, why bother?

it's hanging on until next year that's the trouble...i can usually keep a positive mindset about things like this...like hanging in there and being patient but lately it's been difficult!

once i get in here, i start minorly panicking because i have nothing to do and it makes me crazy. i even downloaded some online books to read...albeit pirating.

so what's a girl to do? she's to hold on until she can't take it any more and i have a feeling i can hold on for one more year...or i'll submit my resume to a recruiter and take a different position for the one year i have left before finishing all of my pre-requisites for school.

who knows.