cold.

it's so cold that i can't feel my fingers....i mean i obviously can, since i'm typing...but it feels like i can't...know what i mean?

chilled. to. the. bone.

blegh.

the boyfriend and i are wondering why we live in the part of the country that has 4 actual seasons, that actually fluctuate from the previous one. winter is so harsh in new england. i don't know why people live in this tundra of a place.

i had to drop the bf off at work this morning (his car has a problem that is taking a while to be fixed), which is technically in the opposite direction of my office but since he has to be at work on time, unlike me, i drop him off by 7:30 and get to my office by 8:30...30-40 minutes earlier than if i were to go to work straight from my own apartment without dropping him off.

strange right? i behave much better when other people are relying on me for something...i don't rely on myself to get up on time, so i never do. i wish i knew how to rely on myself for that because i honestly feel better when i wake up earlier. i feel more awake and prepared for life.

i actually read in this psych. book that people with depression (i'm convinced i have seasonal affective disorder) are in better spirits when they wake up way early. since it's now winter, i should do the same to avoid the winter blues i feel like i usually get.

on a more aggravating note, my apartment is not fully functioning in the heat department. i mean, heat radiates of the radiators, but not to any impressive degree. and i'd use a space heater in my room, but every time i turn it on i reset the fuse box so our power goes out. HOW GHETTO IS THAT?!

AND our shower head only shoots water out (like a high pressure firehose, no "shower"ing to be had in our shower) of half of its head...so i bought a new shower head to replace it and the landlord has yet to install it.

two completely huge issues that i cannot go on living with. no, i'm not going to kill myself...i'm going to continue b*tching to my landlord about fixing it and if he doesn't i'm seriously considering moving out or withholding rent. getting my 2 rather make-peace-not-war roommates on board with this idea is going to be the hard part. i think if i refuse, they'll refuse. hopefully it's that easy.

that's all for now...