weak.

what a week:

monday - i go to the tattoo parlor i've been longing to try out for over a year to get my memorial tattoo for my best friend who i lost last year on 11/11/07. i get it done in brown, so when it heals it'll look like henna which is used for mehndi...a popular Indian artform for a woman's hands/arm/legs/feet. it all meant so much. the tattoo artist, Ben, was super nice and tattoo'ed me perfectly. it's exactly where i want it. getting used to having a mark on my forearm is taking a little time but i know once it's healed, i'll be totally used to it. all long sleeved shirts from now on in The Office, that's for sure.

tuesday - this day last year was one i'll never forget. it was the day i lost one of my best friends. i wish i could write more about her, but i have too many feelings going on to go into depth about it. she was an amazing woman, stronger than i ever knew and beautiful. truly beautiful. i miss you, girl.

wednesday - today would have been her 27th birthday. i can't believe we lost her the day before her 26th...it only feels like yesterday. a life cut too short. happy birthday.

thursday - i can't seem to get myself up out of bed this morning, so call into work late...i head in at 11 instead of the supposed 9 am. on my way to work i speak with my mother who let me know that her brother died on Tuesday...she was never close to him as an adult so he was never around as my "uncle" but it's still saddens me that he is gone. it goes to show that whatever you're putting off to be done tomorrow, you should do today. like, what if he wanted to get back in touch with my mum or vice versa...that chance is not here anymore. it could have been done monday. so if anyone reads this thing...reconnect with those you miss and tell the ones you love that you love them and finally do what you've been putting off! =) you'll thank me later.

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i have a psych. exam tonight which i don't think will be the most difficult of exams. i'm hungry and am feeling guilty for coming into work late...i worry i might get fired, but honestly my boss has no idea that i was late today...he doesn't work in my office. that's no reason to continue being late so next week i vow to be at LEAST on time for work, if not EARLY.

i had to write that so i'll have a better chance of adhering to it.