ok.

so the following has happened, since May:

• May - i got into nursing school (YAY!)
• September - i quit my corporate job
• September - i can now actively blog about my life without worrying about being "discovered"
• September - i moved in with R, and four other guys...most of whom i've been friends with for years.
• September - my dog, C, lives with us too and it's awesome.
• September - i began clinical rotations as a nursing student...interesting stuff
• October - my sister, E, got married (YAY!)
• December - i made it through my first semester of nursing school (YAY!)
• Always - i'm broke (NO YAY)

i'm very interested in going into further detail about the past 10 months (holy shit)

i'm also very interested in attempting to document my clinical rotation experiences i've had with my clients without, of course, divulging their identity...

honestly, life was so boring to me because i felt like i was constantly juggling a dual-life of being in the corporate arena during the day and going to school/library/Starbucks at night...trying to make my dream happen. and being miserable used to be the very fuel i needed to write creatively and passionately...but i'm not miserable anymore. there's no cubicle, no fluorescent lighting and no Microsoft Outlook to stare at for 8 hours a day, 40 hours a week.

i finally got out i'm finally acclimating with the fact that i'm actually going to realize this dream. that's exciting to me. i don't know how this whole "being happy" business will affect the quality/quantity/frequency of my writing, but i'm willing to give it a shot. a little frightening to think about blogging without complaints...i'll have to find some to throw in there, for good measure.

really?

so what does it mean when the guy you broke up with 1 yr and 7 months ago, who was pressuring you to marry him because you were "the only one" for him and if you left him he'd then "dedicate his life to Jesus and ask to be deployed to Afghanistan" (read: threat), marries someone with the same name as you 1 yr and 4 months later....?

shocking? yes. shocking because he preached and preached and preached about how he and i were put here by God for each other, preached on about how i was ignoring the fact that were supposed to be together, by wanting to break up...preached on about how i was always coming up short in our relationship...making me feel terrible about myself....all so he could carve me into this ideal wife of his he managed to find anyway, not even a year and a half after we broke up...yeah, and she's a lauren.

that worked out well for him. excuse me while i continue to work through my damage...

one of those days...

i think today is one of those days where i have so many things to do that i'm paralyzed with how overwhelmed i am.

and in reality, i probably don't have that much to do...it's just stuff i don't want to do.

gonna try to get back on the saddle with this blog business =) it's hard to talk about so many things because i'm not quite in the clear yet...le sigh.

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so i did alright on my lab exam. turns out i neglected to study an entire portion of the study guide....don't ask how, i just managed to do that. i think i broke an 80 if i'm lucky. lucky.

the celtics game was really fun. we won. yay!

the boyfriend and i totally bailed on the company holiday party we were supposed to attend. i felt bad for about 30 minutes and then realized it was the best decision i had made all day. we went to tasca's for dinner, instead, and then met up with friends at the middlesex lounge.

i drank a little too much and got a little too silly for even my taste, so that was a little regretful, but otherwise the night was pretty fun.

sunday was spent with my sister and father in the a.m. for breakfast at newcomb farms. it was exactly what i needed in order to feel like a human again.

after that, my sister and i met up with our mum to go to wrentham outlets for some christmas shopping. after realizing i could afford nothing in even the OUTLETS, i headed on over to The Gap and Banana Republic Outlets for some clothes for the bf. he desperately needed some sweaters and button ups. i spent $110 on three sweaters, two button ups, two undershirts and four pair of boxers. you know the economy is bad when you can get all that for $110.

upon returning to my beloved Boston...i plopped down on the couch and fell asleep for 5 hrs. my body needed to recuperate.

yesterday was pretty good. i had a dr. appointment in the a.m. so got to head into work a little late, which is always a plus for me =)

work has really picked up - a true blessing. days going by faster are welcomed over here.

what else...today i go back to the gym for my cardio, that'll be fun. then i'll hopefully neaten up my room a bit and do some laundry and get in some studying at the same time...we'll see which of those three things happens though! the day simply isn't long enough.

take care.

updateupdate.

i could bore you with all of the banalities of my existence over the past 2 weeks but there are only a few things i really want to touch upon, so you only get the highlights...lucky you.

thanksgiving was bittersweet. my dad didn't have anywhere to go (not to any fault of my own, i warned him a month in advance that he was on his own this year) so my thoughts were with him in a sad way. BUT thanksgiving at the bf's mum's house was really delicious and fun(ny). i felt welcomed and warm the whole time. i love that the bf came from such a warm home. it really explains his confident, peaceful approach to life. like usual, i have lessons to take from him.

a long time friend of mine and his lovely (and i truly mean that) lady got engaged! on (if my memory serves me right) nov 30th. a randomn text from him inviting me out while i was in his area (we live relatively far apart...for Boston anyway) afforded me the opportunity to be part of his and his lady's celebratory get together in our home town. if you're reading this Joc, it was an honor to have been a part of it. truly. congratulations from the bottom of my heart.

and that brings us up to this week, where much much less exciting things have happened, yet positive things nonetheless so they're docu-worthy.

i started the banana diet except a little revised: a banana and a coffee for breakfast, a modest lunch and a dinner with no carbs before 8 pm. i've been feeling the difference already, honestly, but that could be because i started going to the gym again!

yes, you heard right, i'm back at the gym. DEFINITELY not in the capacity i was when i was younger (i was a nut about the gym back then...here's to hoping i turn into that nut again!), but it's something and something is always better than nothing. unless it's something bad, and then something is way worse than nothing.

i digress, i've been dieting and going to the gym this week and i feel GOOD. i have more energy than i used to and i'm more positive (except a slip-up i had with assuming way too much, getting upset over it and needing to apologize later for assuming something when nothing was there. confused? yeah, me too.)

i decided that i wanted to have a new lease on life. i want to look how i did when i was younger and i want to feel better about myself...the latter being more important than the former. PLUS, i'm going to vegas for new years, so that ought to inspire me to do a little more cardio than usual!

tonight the bf is taking me to the Celtics/Blazers game tonight at 8 pm...but before that i'll be taking my lab final for A&P II. i feel pretty good about it so i'm just looking forward to the game!

tomorrow night is the holiday party for my company. this is the first time i've ever brought a date with me...ANYWHERE. i'm including every holiday party i've ever been to AND every wedding i've ever been to. i'm 27, that is not normal. so i'm pretty excited to bring the man i love with me to this company function...i feel grown-up. i think me saying that automatically makes me not grown-up though. eh, whatever.

after the holiday party, we'll be meeting friends up at the middlesex lounge, which is hands down my favorite place in boston. i've never gone and NOT liked what i heard. the bf and i will be dolled up too so that's kinda fun...night out on the town.

okay enough girly talk. the bottom line is that i'm looking forward to this weekend in a big way.

have a good one.